Friday, December 16, 2011

How to Stay Sunny


I'm going to be focusing one of my composition classes in the Winter on the idea of happiness and its relation to place or culture.  We'll be reading Eric Weiner's book "The Geography of Bliss," which focuses on his travels around the world seeking to learn what he can from inhabitants of the world's happiest and most unhappy places.  In the meanwhile, I'm also doing some additional reading and came across this list of ways to "stay sunny," which I love especially in our dark and dreary Seattle winters. 
  • Count your blessings. Express gratitude for what you have privately and also by conveying appreciation to others.
  • Cultivate optimism. Keep a journal in which you write your best possible future. Practice seeing the bright side of every situation.
  • Avoid over-thinking and social comparison. When you start to dwell on problems or compare yourself to others, distract yourself with positive thoughts or activities.
  • Practice kindness. Do good things for others.
  • Nurture relationships. Pick a relationship that needs strengthening, and invest time and energy in it.
  • Do more activities that truly engage you. Increase the experiences at home or work in which you lose yourself in total absorption.
  • Replay and savor life's joys. Pay attention, delight in and review life's momentary pleasures.
  • Commit to your goals. Pick one or more significant goals and devote time and effort to pursuing them.
  • Develop coping strategies. Find and practice healthy ways to manage stress, hardship or trauma.
  • Forgive. Keep a journal or write a letter in which you let go of anger and resentment toward those who have hurt you.
  • Practice spirituality. Get more involved in your church, temple or mosque. Read spiritual books.
  • Take care of your body. Exercise, meditate and laugh.
Source: "The How of Happiness: A Scientific Approach to Getting the Life You Want," by Sonja Lyubomirsky

I also came across the Authentic Happiness homepage, which belongs to Dr. Martin Seligman, the founder of the field of positive psychology, which focuses on the empirical study of such things as positive emotions, etc.  He's got a bunch of surveys you can take, including getting your Authentic Happiness rating.  Ironically, getting my Authentic Happiness rating actually makes me kind of depressed.  I thought I was fairly happy but I'm just a 3.21 out of 5!  This is exactly what Lyubomirsky meant when she said, "Avoid over-thinking and social comparison."  I'm going to go distract myself with eating some chocolate instead.


Sunday, November 20, 2011

"She eats gluten free."




The lovely Ingrid's nephew was telling his friend about her the other day and in describing his aunty to his little friend, Nathan described her as "eating gluten free."  Clearly if a 4 year old uses this descriptor, then it's kind of a big deal.

For those of us who are still gleefully (and thankfully) devouring bread, pastries, and practicing all sorts of gluten-laden gluttony, going gluten-free seems virtually unimaginable.  But the other day, I made a flourless chocolate cake, sans gluten, that made me think that if ever I had to practice non-gluten gluttony, that it might be survivable....

Flourless Chocolate Cake (adapted from Martha Stewart)

This is a Martha recipe and it does take a bit of work to create but the results are fabulous.  The cake isn't much to look at but it is decadent and delicious!

6 tablespoons unsalted butter, plus more for pan 8 ounces bittersweet or semisweet chocolate, finely chopped
6 large eggs, separated
1/2 cup granulated sugar
Confectioners' sugar or Dutch-processed cocoa, for dusting
Sweetened whipped cream, for serving (optional)
Preheat the oven to 275 degrees with the rack in the center. Butter the bottom and sides of a 9-inch springform pan. Set aside.
Begin by beating the egg whites until soft peaks form.  Gradually add in the sugar and continue beating until you have glossy stiff peaks.  You really should use a stand mixture here.
Once you have that done, put the butter and chocolate in a large heatproof bowl and microwave it in 30-second increments (the first time you can do about a minute to a minute and a half) until it's completely melted.  Whisk in the egg yolks but let the chocolate butter mixture cool down a bit so you don't cook the yolks.  (The original recipe says to do this step first but I found that when I started with the chocolate mixture, by the time I had the whites beaten, the chocolate mixture had cooled and hardened, which then resulted in all sorts of shenanigans to get the whole things softened again without having the heat it in the microwave so as to not cook the yolks.)
At this point,  whisk 1/4 of the egg whites into the chocolate mixture; then gently fold in remaining egg whites. 
Pour batter into the prepared pan, and smooth the top with a rubber spatula. Bake until the cake pulls away from the sides of the pan and is set in the center, 45 to 50 minutes. Cool completely on a wire rack; remove sides of pan. Serve at room temperature, dusted with confectioners' sugar or since I didn't have any, I used cocoa powder, which was also nice. Serve with whipped cream, if desired.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

A Comic Warning to Gather Ye Rosebuds While Ye May


It's that time of the year when people tend to take stock and exclaim, "I can't believe it's almost 20--!" or in my case, "I can't believe it's not 1998!"  When we begin a new year, for the first few weeks for some strange reason, I tend to revert back to the 90s when writing dates.  Clearly I have issues but apparently I'm not the only one as this meme clearly shows:


I can't believe there's even a FB page centered around that sentiment.  Ahem!  The following poems encourage us not to put off that trip you've been meaning to take, the call you've been meaning to make, the issue you've been wanting to take care of, to take notice of the beauty around us, because you just never know what might happen.  Instead, let's "kiss the earth & be joyful/ & make much of your time/ & be kindly to everyone/ even to those who do not deserve it" (and believe you me that last one is hard!) and enter 2012 without all those shoulda/woulda/coulda's.


Notice
This evening, the sturdy Levi's
I wore every day for over a year
& which seemed to the end
in perfect condition,
suddenly tore.
How or why I don't know,
but there it was: a big rip at the crotch.
A month ago my friend Nick
walked off a racquetball court,
showered,
got into this street clothes,
& halfway home collapsed & died.
Take heed, you who read this,
& drop to your knees now & again
like the poet Christopher Smart,
& kiss the earth & be joyful,
& make much of your time,
& be kindly to everyone,
even to those who do not deserve it.
For although you may not believe
it will happen,
you too will one day be gone,
I, whose Levi's ripped at the crotch
for no reason,
assure you that such is the case.
Pass it on.
--Steve Kowit, from The Dumbbell Nebula (2000)

Picnic, Lightning
"My very photogenic mother died in a freak accident (picnic, lightning) when I was three."--Lolita
It is possible to be struck by a meteor
or a single-engine plane
while reading in a chair at home.
Safes drop from rooftops
and flatten the odd pedestrian
mostly within the panels of the comics,
but still, we know it is possible,
as well as the flash of summer lightning,
the thermos toppling over,
spilling out onto the grass.
And we know the message
can be delivered from within.
The heart, no valentine,
decides to quit after lunch,
the power shut off like a switch,
or a tiny dark ship is unmoored
into the flow of the body's rivers,
the brain a monastery,
defenseless on the shore.
This is what I think about
when I shovel compost
into a wheelbarrow,
and when I fill the long flower boxes,
then press into rows
the limp roots of red impatiens--
the instant hand of Death
always ready to burst forth
from the sleeve of his voluminous cloak.
Then the soil is full of marvels,
bits of leaf like flakes off a fresco,
red-brown pine needles, a beetle quick
to burrow back under the loam.
Then the wheelbarrow is a wilder blue,
the clouds a brighter white,
and all I hear is the rasp of the steel edge
against a round stone,
the small plants singing
with lifted faces, and the click
of the sundial
as one hour sweeps into the next.
--Billy Collins, Picnic, Lightning (1998)

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Last of the Fresh from the Farm

Here in Seattle, autumn and winter are doing their final dance together, trying to decide whose turn it is to lead and switching around just when I think I've figured it out.  We still get a few gorgeous, pale sunshiney days but the drizzly wet stuff is definitely making itself known.  There's a chill in the air, and I saw frost on the grass today; all signs that winter is coming.  Ah, well, at least I can look forward to hunkering down and building up my winter fat stores as my evolutionary instincts compel me to by eating all those hearty stews, participating in hot pot parties, and doing some baking! 

To bid adieu to the season of harvest, here are the last of the fall harvest from the last few months:




Gorgeous flowers from the Grandmother's Garden Mix, especially the Cosmos with their bright happy pink faces, stand out against the colors of fall.  The rainbow chard love the cooler wet weather and grow big and glossy leaves, perfect for stews and stir fries.  The last of fingerling potatoes have been dug up for now though I've realized that once you've planted potatoes, you'll usually continue to get them since they're impossible to dig up completely.




The last of the summer tomatoes are also harvested along with fresh-tasting apples.  For those tomatoes that haven't had a chance to ripen before the cold weather returns, pulling them out by the roots and hanging them upside down in the garage will allow the nutrients to continue ripening the fruit.  Or if you get a chance before pulling them up, put some rotten tomatoes next to the green ones and they emit some ethylene gas that gets their green brothers to mature.




The following is Thom's Ginger Apple Bread Recipe, for those extra delicious apples abundant everywhere this time of year.  Trust me, it's good!

Ginger Apple Bread

4 cups baking apples coarsely grated (3-4 depending on size)
1 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp ground ginger
1 tsp ground cardamon
1/2 cup butter
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
2 tsp vanilla
2 cups flour
2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup toasted walnuts
1/2 cup chopped candied ginger (optional)
1/2 cup raisins

 Begin by preheating the oven to 350 degrees.  Season the grated apples with the cinnamon, ginger, and cardamon and set aside.  Cream together the butter and sugars until fluffy.  Then mix the eggs in one at a time and add the vanilla.  In a separate bowl, combine the flour, salt, and baking soda and sift.  Add the dry mixture to the wet in two batches, being careful not to overmix.  Scrape into a greased and floured 9x13 pan* and bake for 45 minutes or until a toothpick comes out of the center clean.  It's fall in bread form!  Enjoy!


*I decided to put my batter into a loaf pan instead and had enough batter left to make several muffins as well.  The muffins were done after about 35 minutes and the loaf took about 55 minutes. 

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Batter My Heart, Three-Person'd God




Batter my heart, three-person'd God, for you
As yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend;
That I may rise and stand, o'erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurp'd town to another due,
Labor to admit you, but oh, to no end;
Reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
But is captiv'd, and proves weak or untrue.
Yet dearly I love you, and would be lov'd fain,
But am betroth'd unto your enemy;
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again,
Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me. 
--John Donne, Holy Sonnets

Saturday, October 29, 2011

On Travel


Manuel Antonio, Costa Rica

"In old Arabic poetry love, song, blood, and travel appear as four basic desires of the human heart and the only effective means against our fear of death.  Thus travel is elevated to the dignity of the elementary needs of humankind.  "To sail is necessary, to live is not" (Navigare est necesse, vivere non est necesse)--these words were, according to Plutarch, pronounced by a Roman before the departure of a ship in tempestuous weather.  Whatever practical reasons push people out of their homes to seek adventure, travel undoubtedly removes us from familiar sights and from everyday routine.  It offers to us a pristine world seen for the first time and is a powerful means of inducing wonder." --Czeslaw Milosz, The Book of Luminous Things

Sanya, China
Haikou, China
Bangkok, Thailand
Hanoi, Vietnam
Halong Bay, Vietnam
Macchu Pichu, Peru

Hanoi, Vietnam
Sanya, China
Haikou, China
Oaxaca, Mexico
Mexico City, Mexico



Siem Riep, Cambodia
Angkor Watt, Cambodia
Phenom Penh, Cambodia
Hanoi, Vietnam
Phenom Penh, Cambodia
Puebla, Mexico


Masai Mara, Kenya
Masai Mara, Kenya
Masai Mara, Kenya
Sedona, AZ
Manuel Antonia, Costa Rica
Maras, Peru

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

"I'm Kind of a Big Deal"

I'm the adviser for a student group on campus and during one of the first meetings, the members were all introducing themselves to each other and one of them said by way of introduction, "Hi, I'm V--.  I'm kind of a big deal."  What?!  I didn't know if I heard correctly because when I was growing up, statements like that were not seen as positive when self-proclaimed.  But here was this student proclaiming it in as matter-of-fact of a manner as if he were telling us all that he ate pizza for lunch that day.  I felt a little dumbstruck at both his youthful bravado and self-assurance.  To his credit, he did also casually say that he was a model for a fancy jeans company, so in fact, he was kind of a big deal in his own right.

What struck me about his statement though was a couple of things: first, the youthful hubris that lets a person get away with that sort of thing.  I guess if you haven't lived that long and have a fairly limited circle of acquaintances, then indeed he was probably the biggest deal he knew.  It's the proverbial big fish in a little pond.  Second, that he didn't mind tooting his own horn because that's what he believed.  So many times, we're afraid to recognize when we do something well, either out of genuine or false humility, and his statement was a reminder that sometimes, it's good and right to just say, "Hey!  I'm kind of a big deal."  Part of getting older is that we lose that youthful bravado as we begin to think that anything and everything we do is no big deal.  We realize that in fact, we're just a little fish in a big pond.  But in fact, we should celebrate the accomplishments in our lives.

I was talking to the lovely Ingrid the other day and she told me that she had hung her finisher's medal from the Portland Marathon up on the way.  So what if 11,999 other people had the same one?  It's kind of a big deal!

The following week I went back to the club meeting and this time they we're electing officers.  One of the students being elected got up and said, "You all should vote for me for secretary because one of the requirements is that you be good looking and I think I fit the bill."  Again, gotta love that youthful hubris.

Try it.  Next time someone asks you about something like, "Why did you get your copies on time and I didn't?" just answer, "Well, I'm kind of a big deal" and enjoy the look of shock on his or her face.  Really.  It's fun.

I wanted to include an excerpt from Lawrence Ferlinghetti's poem "I Am Waiting" because it's a poem that reminds me of the importance of wonder in our lives and how recollecting our childhood and "youth’s dumb green fieldsis part of that "renaissance of wonder."  So bring back wonder,  "youth's dumb green fields," the hubris of youth, the spirit of invincibility, and the belief that you're livin' the dream because you know what?  I'm kind of a big deal!


Excerpt from "I Am Waiting" by Lawrence Ferlinghetti

I am waiting
to get some intimations
of immortality
by recollecting my early childhood
and I am waiting
for the green mornings to come again   
youth’s dumb green fields come back again
and I am waiting
for some strains of unpremeditated art
to shake my typewriter
and I am waiting to write
the great indelible poem
and I am waiting
for the last long careless rapture
and I am perpetually waiting
for the fleeing lovers on the Grecian Urn   
to catch each other up at last
and embrace
and I am awaiting   
perpetually and forever
a renaissance of wonder
--Lawrence Ferlinghetti, “I Am Waiting” from A Coney Island of the Mind. 

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Born to Run



Last weekend my friends Grace and Ingrid and I finished the Portland Marathon--26.2 miles with 12,000 other runners.  There was some question if Ingrid would run as she developed shin splints about 3 weeks before the race.  Grace was running with what she described as "little knives stabbing her knees" and I had plantar fasciitis, heel pain that caused me to have to run around the house in high heels even when in pajamas (as bizarre as that sounds, it's what my podiatrist told me to get the pressure off my heel!).  We were a sorry lot but still determined to finish the run as we'd invested long hours training for this race.  Many people shook their heads, puzzled as to why we'd subject our bodies to such a punishing regiment, and Ingrid's chiropractor begged her, with tears in her eyes, not to run the marathon as she'd do "irreparable damage" to herself.  With all this negative perception towards the effects of long distance running, it hardly seemed sane that each year, tens of thousands of people participate in marathons all over the world.  But then again, no one's ever accused us of being too sane.


We headed up to Portland the day before, partaking in some good grub including kimchee tacos and fresh burgers served on some nice, buttery Texas toast at some of the fine food trucks Portland is known for as well as a restaurant in the Pearl District called "The Fish Grotto."  This is the sort of place where the hipster waiter tells you his recommendations with a nonchalance bordering on insolence but ultimately turns out to be a sweetheart who gave each of us a coupon for free appetizers next time we came around.  The place itself is dark and somewhat dive-y, but everything we ate there was delicious and the lobster mac and cheese is absolutely the thing to carbo load on the night before a big race.




On Sunday, we all got up before six to head over to the start line.  Our awesome support crew, Eveline and Tony, provided much needed moral support throughout, giving us plenty of cowbell and encouraging not just us but other runners along the way, telling them, "You own this!"  Some of the signage along the way also provided some comic relief including: "This is the worst parade ever" or "Running sucks."  For me, the first 18 miles were pretty good but about the 19th mile is where the lack of food (the race planners provided water, energy drinks, and just gummy bears and occasional pretzels to replenish lost glycogen stores) and general tiredness begin to set in.  But usually by then, there's really very little doubt that you can finish.  After all, you've finished over 3/4 of the race.  Our motto had been "Under five and alive" and we all made our goal: we finished alive!



We spent the next few days sore and tired but happy that we'd accomplished our goal.  Conversations around the house went something like this:
"Are you okay?"
"What makes you think I'm not okay?  Just because I scream each time I stand up or sit down doesn't mean I'm not okay."


This is my 3rd marathon and each time I think, "This is it.  No more," especially as different injuries have flared up over the years.  Just when I think I've solved my knee problem, I end up with a heel problem.  It really makes you appreciate when you have a healthy body.  I'm not convinced though that distance running is the issue.  I'd been reading Christopher McDougall's book Born to Run, a narrative about a tribe of runners called the Tarahumara who live and run out in the Copper Canyon in Mexico.  They neither have fancy running shoes (they run with huraches or sandals crafted from rubber tires) nor do they have a strict training schedule (in fact they usually have a huge party where they get completely smashed before their two day running parties) but they don't get injured or hurt.


Some of the "secrets" of the Tarahumara include a simple mostly vegetarian diet and a drink made out of chia seeds, which apparently one tablespoon of the seed is like "a smoothie made from salmon, spinach, and human growth hormone," packed with omega 3s, omega 6s, calcium, iron, zinc, fiber, and antioxidants.  You just have to get over the ick factor of eating a Chia pet.  Another thing the Tarahumara do often is run barefoot or with barely any footwear.  Barefoot running has been a huge trend lately but the Tarahumara have done it for decades.  The logic is that tennis shoes are helpful is you have good running posture but the majority of us don't.  We run with poor posture, with big, sloppy strides, which twist and tweak our backs, and the shoes mask the problem, thus resulting in injury.  In fact, one of the pioneers of barefoot running, Barefoot Ken Bob's "Naked Toe Manifesto" says "Shoes block pain, not impact!  Pain teaches us to run comfortably!  From the moment you start going barefoot, you will change the way you run."  In fact, feet are supposed to like a good beating and will stride down harder in cushioned shoes to search for a hard, stable platform.  I asked my podiatrist about this and he of course said, "Don't believe everything you read."  Of course, according to barefoot running subscribers, his living is built upon the foot problems that are supposed to disappear once you ditch the shoes, but I'm not quite at the point of chucking my shoes though once my plantar fasciitis heals up, I may be inclined to give it a go.


One last thing the book talks about with the Tarahumara as well as other ultra marathoners is in the attitude towards running.  They embrace the effort, seeing fatigue not as an enemy but as a motivator.  They embrace "Easy, light, smooth, and fast" as the motto to their runs, not caring how high the hill or how far they've go to go.  They enjoy the run as an expression for the love of life, and as a way to live.  As McDougall says, "That was the real secret of the Tarahumara: they'd never forgotten what it felt like to love running.  They remembered that running was mankind's first fine art, our original act of inspired creation....the way we survived and thrived and spread across the planet....You had to love running, or you wouldn't live to love anything else.  And like everything else we love--everything we sentimentally call our "passions" and 'desires"--it's really an encoded ancestral necessity.  We were born to run; we were born because we run.  We're all Running People, as the Tarahumara have always known."  This is in contrast to the American approach of running as a way to get stuff--as a means to an end--getting medals, Nike deals, becoming faster, skinnier.  I'm not sure I agree with the whole woo-woo idea of running as the ultimate expression of love and creation but I do think we spend a lot of time as Americans thinking about stuff like better shoes or gadgets that are supposed to help us to be faster or better rather than just going out and just running.  We also spend a lot of time dealing with and complaining about the injuries we sustain, which definitely does not make you feel easy, light, or smooth in running.


One of the stories that the book ends with which really made me think about the idea that we were born to run was the story of David Carrier, a scientist who in looking at a rabbit carcass realized that one of the mysteries of human evolution, which was why man became upright, was to breathe better.  And if humans evolved to be better at breathing, then they evolved to be better at running.  The problem was that humans were not very fast runners compared to all other animals.  Even compared to our ancestors, the Neanderthal, humans are pretty wimpy.  Neanderthals are stronger, tougher, burlier, and had bigger brains.  So how did humans beat them out?  By being able to run longer.  Most other animals were faster, but because they didn't have the physiology to cool off, if humans could keep an animal galloping and in sight on a hot day, after about ten or fifteen kilometers' worth of running, it will go into hypothermia and collapse.  Then you can spear it and eat it.  David and his brother Scott, who worked for NPR, gave this theory a try and they recorded the event for This American Life.  They problem, they realized, was that while they were trying to run an antelope down, the animal has a few tricks of its own up its sleeve.  The antelope would run into the trees and rest while the brothers tried to track it or it would run in with its herd and a different antelope would run out, thus foiling their attempts to tire out the same animal.  David almost gave up at this point with trying to prove his Running Man theory when he received a call from a researcher named Louis Liebenberg who had been learning to track with a group of Kalahari bushmen in Botswana who still hunted in the old ways.  Liebenberg learned to read the tracks of animals in the dirt and then learned to track without tracks at all with something known as "speculative hunting."  This is where you project yourself into the mind of the creature, to anticipate what it will do.  After he had learned to live and track with these bushmen for several years, they took him out for a special hunt.  When they came across a clutch of kudu, an especially agile form of antelope, they started to run after them.  The bushmen ran as a group and whenever the kudu would dash into the trees to rest, one of the hunters would drive it back into the sun.  When the kudu would run into the herd, the four Bushmen would be so skilled as to be able to track and keep running after the same animal.  Thus in this way, after two hours, the animal buckled and crashed to the ground.  Liebenberg later discovered that this hunt had been particularly quick and that for most times, it will last about 3-4 hours, which coincidentally, is about how long a marathon lasts at the pace these Bushmen were running.  (Recreation has its reasons!)  In other words, according to McDougall, "running was the superpower that made us human--which means it's a superpower all human possess."

One more interesting thing is that when scientists monitored the results of the 2004 NYC marathon and compared finishers by age, they found that starting at age 19, runners get faster every year until hitting their peak at 27.  At that time, runners' speed starts to decline but it isn't until you are 64 that you're back to the same running speed as at 19!  There's a lot more that the book talks about, including why running is good for both men and women and how it makes us more human, more cooperative, basically better people and how our quest for efficiency is what's killing our love for it but I shall let any interested parties read it for themselves.




Who knows.  If I have until I'm 64 until I'll be running like a 19 year old, that's not a bad thing.  As McDougall quotes in the book, "You don't stop running because you get old.  You get old because you stop running."